Last night I was reading this from the devotional I read everyday on the air and this question resonated with me long after the devotional was over. “Do you judge God’s goodness or power by your own personal circumstances? What’s wrong with that idea?”

As I was driving home last night I was thinking how often do I determine God’s goodness by MY gain? How often do I say GOD is GOOD when something favorable happens to me? It made me think about God, and then I started to think that God is always there in the thick and thin and each breathe is a blessing and each thing we do is a blessing because God allows it. I swear perspective is everything, and is huge for me in understanding life, because we can always look at our scenario, our situation from two different perspectives, the positive and negative. You don’t have to believe in Christ to understand that, but believing in Christ makes looking at the positive even more real. Anyway back on topic with what I was talking about. The more I reflected on that question the more I realized how selfish I was at times, not just because I gave God praise when good things happen but also because at times I didn’t give God praise when bad things happen. THAT right there is KEY to understanding that question. We shouldn’t judge God’s goodness by what we GAIN because God is good even when we don’t gain. It’s not about me, or you, or us when answering that question, and if you look at it that way then YOU are being selfish. God isn’t a puppet that we use or we call on when we have something to gain. That’s not the point, God is God.
Anyways if you want to read the devotional hit up the link. Love this.

Last season I started getting into Dexter and started watching it On Demand. I can’t stand coming into a show late and 9 times out of 10 if I don’t watch the show from season one I’ll let it pass and just ignore it all together. The last season was pretty interesting, especially with the Trinity killers and the suspense and drama but after awhile the show became boring, unrealistic, and it was hard to relate to the characters. The only positive side (if this is considered one) to the show is how the writers find new ways to murder people and in turn have Dexter murder them. However, even at that Dexter has become so unrealistic that I find myself not as interested anymore. When will he get caught? When will the Miami Metro put it together that one of their own is a MASS serial killer! It all just seems to unrealistic and improbable. There are too many loose ends that need to be tied up for this plot to work. Regardless I still watch it and still record the show and still critique it. Bah…I bet there are a ton of other people that way too.

Less than one week…

Posted: October 18, 2010 in Uncategorized

Yes! Today is Monday and then on Saturday I will officially be a married man. A ring on my left finger for the rest of my life. A ball and chain on….haha nah I am just kidding. I didn’t have much time to play around with the wordpress blog this past weekend because I was at Lake Texoma and well the last thing I was going to do was pick up a laptop and play around with this.

-This past weekend was what I needed. It was fun, no drama, no stress, great food and friends and a hell-uva time. It was one of those weekends where inside jokes are made and memories will live long after the weekend was over.

-I finally heard back from the apartment complex and we got the place. No idea how I am going to move in before the wedding or when I will find time but we got the place, which is a huge deal and accomplishment. Why is getting this apartment a huge deal? Welll about 5 years ago I lost my job had to break the lease of my current apartment and in turn had to pay a crap load of money. I wasn’t exactly rolling in dough so it took forever to pay off and when we applied for this place low and behold that little lease break came up on my rental history which in turn threw a huge curve into the situation. Long story short I had to track down a place in San Antonio call them up get paper work faxed before we got approved. It was a head-ache but as of today we got the place!

-Work is going good, I don’t know if I will get that other FT position with CC. I haven’t heard anything back. That errrrks me, ya know? You apply for a position, and then you don’t hear anything forever and its like well thanks for applying but nothing. Why is it that I perceive THAT, the fact that I didn’t get a call back as I am not qualified enough OR I am not good enough? Stupid, I know but I always think it’s silly how humans validate their worth from other humans. We are constantly LOOKING for acceptance and approval from PEERS but in the end does it really matter? No. It’s a battle I often fight, but then I think Adrian this is dumb…WHOCARES if this person doesn’t think highly of you or WHOCARES if you don’t get their approval.

-I am looking forward to the future, looking forward to having a wife, looking forward to growing more in Christ with my wife, and looking forward to getting more into photography. I recently was asked to take pictures for the CC cluster at different station events. I think it will be a great opportunity for others to see my work and I know that some other opportunities will become of it. Not to mention being in radio and having access to concerts, festivals etc is a great way to create other opportunities. So thats one thing I want to do after the wedding stuff settles down.

Ok back to accomplishing the things I have to do this week. I have a LIST PEOPLE!

Creativity.

Posted: October 16, 2010 in Uncategorized
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I love seeing stuff like this because it challenges me and makes me look at everyday life differently. I tend to get stuck in a frame of mind that includes the idea that I have to travel to create or I have to get out of my element and routine to create and that is so not true. Art and beauty are all around you, you just have to look for it.

Earrllllly morning Saturday

Posted: October 16, 2010 in Uncategorized

For the last month or two I have worked the super early shift on Saturdays. I usually get in right and 6 and then leave right around 10. At first it was a pain because I never usually wake till after 10 but Saturdays are different. I enjoy the fact that I get outta here and then still have the entire day to do whatever. Working this early reminds me of my Starbucks days when I would get up 4:30 work at 5:00 off at 10:00 and then off to do whatever. It’s like you have two days in one. Once I get outta here its off to the lake for the b. party. I am pretty stoked about this weekend. I feel its a much needed weekend especially with all the planning that has gone on for the weekend. I really really really can’t wait. HA! Then next weekend I am getting married.

-The other night I was at the Stars game with some friends and one of them mentioned how awesome my fiancee is. When she was talking about her it hit me from a different perspective. Obviously I think the world of my fiancee, because I am marrying her, but hearing how awesome she is unsolicited from someone else really made me appreciate who she is and what she does. After that conversation I couldn’t help to think about what she said, and she is right. I am really, really, really lucky. While most girls wouldn’t put up with my crap, my past mistakes, my short comings, but I have a girl who looks past that and continues to love me regardless.

-Then the other day I posted something on twitter, a quote about love. Basically it said Love isn’t blind, lust is, love sees through all the mistakes and hangups and still continues to love. That is a good quote to remember because it is true. Love looks past all of that and still continues to love. I know what the bible says in Corinthians about love, but regardless of how picturesque that idea is, the picture of love in Corinthians is constantly over used.

-WP: I want to try and figure out how to get the “yoitsadrian just another wordpress blog off” any ideas? I imagine I can but it will come in the form of a upgrade which is fine but I don’t want to spend any money into this yet until I know exactly what I am going to use it for.

-One week before the wedding and I haven’t gotten the grooms gifts yet! Ah, I’m not stressing about it but I have been going back and forth about what type of gift to get. I don’t want to get something cliche, but I may not have any other option. I want to get something unique and different but that takes time and obviously I am running out of it. I have a feeling Wednesday night is going to come and it will have me at the mall running around trying to find gifts. Watch. Wait. See.

-I emailed PD about this gig and I hope it comes through. I feel like for the past 7 years since I got into radio I have been scraping, clawing, persevering to get ahead. Always saying yes, never saying no, and trying anything and everything possible to make something of myself. Do you ever have that feeling that if someone would give you a shot you know you would excel and succeed, but all you need is that shot. I have been thinking alot about that idea lately, and lately I have been getting my shot. I think that if this position does come through it will really give me the opportunity I have been looking for. I do notice that people notice the fact that I contribute more then I should, do more then I should, and consistently say yes and not no. Lets hope its worth it..

That’s all I got for now, so for the next few hours of my shift…time to figure out how to get rid of the “yoitsadrian, just another wordpress blog” because I hope this ones not.

The first and not the last

Posted: October 15, 2010 in Uncategorized

I have a tumblr, I have a facebook, I have a twitter and now I have a wordpress. I don’t know why honestly. It all started with a conversation which is how most things do, and I mentioned how there are more radio station websites who are utilizing Word Press for their websites. I have heard of Word Press before obviously but never used it because I had a tumblr. So I decided why not try and teach myself about wordpress and in the process blog about it. I also want to use this blog to talk more about personal stuff. Not necessarily pop-culture or music which I am sure will find its way in here but more about relationship, and other things I come across. So…in closing know that this blog is a work in progress and I’ll update it while I work on it and who knows what will become of it. It being the blog. There….